Sunday, September 15, 2002

I've passed through one week so far...

I haven't divorced yet (laugh)

Oh! I'm really grateful to my friends and people who I didn't expect for giving me so many words of blessing. Thank you!! Some fans are having romantic concerns, like that I am too happy to make songs in the same way as before, and there are fans that want to congratulate me, but have mixed feelings like "somehow complicated" or "lonely"... Come on! I won't change at all! I face my job and my productions with a very strong sense of work, professional sense, artisan sense. Delivering a document to the ward office doesn't mean anything will change, everyone will naturally do the same, sooner or later.

I don't write lyrics based on my real life, so I think you won't see a clear change suddenly, even in my lyrics. So there's no point in looking for changes in my lyrics (laugh) Because lyrics are poems... So if we listen connecting them to the reality, the enjoyment reducts by half!

I'm often said that marriage is the "goal", but I think it's actually the real "start" (sorry about the lack of dream (laugh)) I feel like I've been finally qualified, and the real match will begin from now! This may seem like "getting married out of the blue" from your side and it may be the reason why some of you are worried about me, but actually I had this in my mind since long time and made a calm decision on it. Trust me a little morestar

It was written in a weekly magazine that I'm repeatedly entering and leaving hospital, but I'm not, so don't worry about my physical conditions. A tumor in the ovary (in my case, hereditary) isn't a serious illness and I'm not thinking about making a baby now. This will be on a distant future! When this time comes, I will make a baby-making declaration, as an apology for having surprised everyone with the sudden marriage announcement (laugh)

By the way, recently I got addicted to cappuccino, even more than coffee!! I'm drinking so much that people around me is saying I'm strange!! By all means, isn't the first impression really important? When I drank it for the first time, I thought it was the taste of clouds that I had imagined when I was a child! It seems to be the clouds itself by its appearance or taste, and I felt it would be bitter because of the pollution of the clouds in the city's sky. The bitterness of cappuccino was exactly, just like I had imagined! And now I like it so much that I drink it down in a single draft.

And, I saw a discussion about the lyrics during the fade out of the song ASAP that is recorded in the album, being developed in a fan site managed by a fan!
I think I haven't ever talked about parts of lyrics that aren't printed on the lyrics card, but let me tell you only this one!

The correct answer is...
Aitai toki ni kimi wa inai (When I want to see you, you aren't there)
Nakitai toki wa enryo shinai (When I want to cry, I won't hold back)

I love this part, so I wanted to tell it at any cost!

Well then... see you!

credits to Samurai @ HikkiCentral who originally translated this message.

Friday, September 06, 2002

Important announcement

To whom it may concern:

Today I, Utada Hikaru, had my name entered in Kiriya Kazuaki's family register.

Since we got to know each other in the winter before last, we overcame various occurrences involving joys and sorrows, while publishing together many works of videos and CD jackets, and putting full confidence in each other we have gotten to this decision. I am deeply grateful to the people who gave us help to this realization.

I think that after resting for a while, this time when I am restarting the musical activities is very appropriate to the start of a new life, and I got married without even waiting for being blessed with a child.

I have obtained a new power, and hereafter I will fling myself into work throwing out my chest.

For all the fans:

Just now, I've sent the above letter by fax to the mass media.

I got married today.
Consulting Toshiba-EMI, my office and my parents, I've been preparing it carefully, faithfully, trying to materialize it with a good shape as much as I can, until I reached this day.

So, don't worry!
Maybe some people will wonder why did I get married so young without even getting pregnant.
But on this world where we don't know what will happen, I think that all conviction is desire, and desire is the biggest conviction.
It's a decision that comes from the natural feeling of wanting to live in a dignified manner with the person that I love.

Please expect the new Hikaru!!

September 6th 2002
Utada Hikaru

credits to Samurai @ HikkiCentral who originally translated this message.

Thursday, September 05, 2002

I'm still immature

In my last message posted a few minutes ago I wrote like "this made me grow so much, blah blah blah" and . . .

. . . I found a wrong letter right away !!!
Well it's like this is getting to be one of my specialties (lol)

I wrote like wrong Kanshin, but of course everybody has interests in themselves! - yes, it should be correct Kanshin! Sorry for my *mistake*

(NOTE by Nuuk)
wrong Kanshin ... means "interest" "concern"
correct Kanshin ... means "being impressed" "admiration"
Both words pronounced as "kan-shin."

Unconscious diary

I started to write diary when I was a child and since that time I've been leaving it without writing anything for about 3 days over and over...

I was wondering if there wasn't any update in the NEWS section or staff diary and then I was checking my own site just now. And casually I checked "message from hikki" (nobody would update that section when I don't know, but without losing my faint hope...(laugh)) and taking the opportunity I clicked "Back Number"... and then! There were texts from my youth's days, and I'm now fully loaded of good memories!! (doesn't it make remind of my old way of writing? (laugh))

Er... a chance to look back over my past is rare, and since these three years and a half have a dense content, I was soaked in the Hikaru of the past. First of all I read all 1999 year at a stroke!

Since I've debuted until nowadays, thinking that my job involves me in new experiences I've been trying to write the diary and giving up many times, but it's so great that this diary of three years and a half is left over here!

However, what is written here is not more than a little side of my life, so it's an enjoyment that can't be tasted by anyone but me... So, there are many things that I understand because it's me, like "Oh, at this season there are many cheerful expressions, but 'that thing' was like 'this' and 'that person' was like 'that' and it was a time in which it was hard to keep living every day... But I could manage it and overcame it.." or "At this time that person helped me so much!". Maybe you people who read my diary will feel a little disappointed because I said this.. However! I wrote a lot until here! (laugh) I was impressed with myself. It's natural, but at the beginning I was very inexperienced and unprepared and said things that hurt a lot of people, then I used to get worried and make corrections or supplements.. I was so cute when I was in trouble! (laugh) Now I understand very well that the act of keeping writing messages here made me grow so much! For people that I can't see, that I can only imagine, what can I do to be nice, to be watchful, how can I avoid expressions that can hurt, what words should I select for not being misunderstood, for transmiting sincerity...? People made me learn that the "nice person", the "big person", the "not indifferent person" that I want to become is in a brief "a person who has a large imagination"! Because a lot of people read my messages and retured various reactions by e-mail. Thanks a lot!

At the beginning, while feeling the pressure of the huge responsability of speaking to the public, I kept writing and learned how to cope and gradually got used to it. I thought I would apart beter private things and things that I write here, but I noticed that recently I'm writing things that I spontaneously think, without getting ready and more naturally than at the beginning.

It's a proof I became an adult!

However, I wonder how far this corner will go??? Isn't it getting to a spot that has nothing to do if I'm working or not? Will I keep writing even when I get old??? And then someday I will entrust it to a child as well as inheritances, and this child will succeed...?? Or if I'm pressed for money I will sell to someone! (laugh) No... nobody would have any profit owning this diary, except for me. It's undoubtedly a "valuable property." For me it is.

Well then, I'm gonna read the 2000 year over!

credits to Samurai @ HikkiCentral who originally translated this message.

Monday, September 02, 2002


The title is not a mojibake (unintelligible sequence of japanese characters (laugh))
Well, this morning, I made one and a half cup of coffe with the coffe-maker as usual, and thinking about how good it was to be living one more day, I took my lips to the mug and at the moment that I loaded the fresh coffee into my mouth...

"What's this?! It tastes so bad!"

I thought to myself, thinking like spouting it.

"Huh? What unpleasant flavor is this? This cant't be called delicious by any standard"
I overhastly suspected Star Bucks (coffee company)... (yeah, because recently there were many troubles involving foodstuffs...)

... then I realized that I had just brushed my teeth! It seems that the combination of tooth flowder and coffee wasn't very good (laugh) Excuse me! After some time it became really delicious! -- to Star Backs

And didn't I say that I'm looking for my favorite coffee beans? The one I like more at the moment is the most popular one, called "House Brand"... It's a very normal (common) one! (laugh) Yeah, but I said the last time that "normal" is a good thing.

Yeah, maybe this story doesn't have a punch line.

as I thought,
I don't have any idea (laugh)! Well, see you!

credits to Samurai @ HikkiCentral who originally translated this message.
(NOTE by Samurai)
"Hamigakikoohii" ... she made a pun using the words hamigakiko(tooth flowder) and koohii(coffee).